Husband's surgery and a bad day

Today, my husband has to get oral surgery done on his mouth.  I really want to be there for him, but I can't sit at the hospital all day with the baby.  I don't want Zander around all those germs because I already think that he is getting a cold :(  Today, I'm having a bad day in general.  Since my husband has been in school this is the first day I have actually spent alone since we have gotten here.  I know I have to get use to it because he was going to start work back eventually, but I just thought this time would be different.  I guess it is a little different because I just don't have a lot of time to be depressed and homesick like I did before.  I still really haven't made any friends and I have found one family part time to babysit.  I really need another one for full time but it seems like everytime someone seems intrested they either find someone else or change their mind.  It's just frustrating I guess.  Plus, its been difficult to get Zander in a whole new routine since we are here now and not with grandma and grandpa.  I know it's for the best for Zander, Chris, and I to be a family, but sometimes it's just hard.  I wouldn't want my husband to get out of the army though because I know that he loves it and he provides for us so I'm able to be a stay at home mom with our precious little boy!  I guess this is all just part of being an adult!  We have also been struggling with constipation and spitting up again with Zander, but I really don't want to go through switching formulas again and he tried about everyone of them before anyways and none of them helped.  He sees his pediatrician on Dec. 21st so I guess we will see what he says.  Anyways, I need to start laundry and wash bottle and try to keep my mind occupied because I'm worried about my hubby :(

The Blog

I love to write and keep a journal, but I find it really hard to be able to sit down and write my thought and stick to it so I figured I would write a blog online that way I can keep up with it, but it doesn't have to be a everyday thing.  As a new mom it's hard to find time to do things that need to get done.  I feel lucky when I'm able to get the house cleaned and a shower taken....really lucky if I'm able to start supper at a decent time.  My son and I just moved back to Fort Bragg, North Carolina with my husband who is in the Active Duty Military.  I'm finding out firsthand what it's like to take care of a new baby and try to keep up the obligations of a stay at home army wife.  We were living at my parents and I didn't have to worry about the house as much and I also had alot of help when it came to the baby, but now I'm on my own.  It's taken sometime to get use to, but I think we are all slowly adjusting to the new lifestyle.  My husband helps out around the house as much as possible and he is starting to get use to having a baby around.  I'm trying to start an at home daycare business so I'm able to stay home with my son, but still contribute to our families income!  I don't even want to think about what it will be like when I get a couple kids to watch, plus my son, plus the housework, and the cooking.  Wow, by the end of the day I will be pulling out my hair.  Anyways, this seems to be a good start for now.  I plan to try to blog at least once a week and more if I have the time.  We will just have to see how it goes.  It will be easier once we get into a good and set routine, but until then we are taking it a moment at a time and enjoying every minute with our precious baby boy, Zander Michael Ray Ford :)